The most difficult thing for an artist is drawing that first line or writing that first statement. I guess it’s the same with me where I have had ideas but the first statement to be written is the most difficult one. But nevertheless, crossed those interferences in my mind blocking my work.  Is something common to everyone. First love. As always, it has to be in a poetic form.

I was reminded of it then,

Couldn’t recall what really was it then,

We were kids and had no clue,

The skies always seemed blue,

There she came- making an appearance,

And the angels began to dance,

she was looking at my friend, smiling,

and I could feel my blood boiling,

finally she came in,

and I kept on lookin’,

for she would look back at least,

but no- for she was enjoyin the feast,

did I make her conscious,

looked at myself and it was obvious,

I was looking like a bloody beast,

banged the desk with my fist,

didn’t feel the pain then,

for I was busy lookin at the new hen,

well, it was time to go home,

man, the day was all gone,

rushed home and started getting ready for the next day,

for the first time went to Him, to pray,

Dear Lord, I’ll study well and do good,

Make sure she looks at me and make me shrewd,

All set for the plan,

Went to join the clan,

Everything went pretty planned,

but she did not give me a glance,

days went by and exams came,

man, it wasn’t my game,

surprisingly passed,

moved to the next class- fingers crossed,

the same happened the next year,

and yet another class clear,

days passed by without victory,

but everyday was the same story,

one fine day gathered all my strength,

for it was something I had to end,

told her everything I had in stock,

and the reply was,” there’s no reason for us to talk”,

all broken down,

felt like a clown,

had lunch and then planned again,

all filled with remorse and pain,

but did not have the strength to utter a word,

I just wished I could have been a bird,

Fly high and high and high,

Sit on the clouds and cry,

But that was unreal,

So what’d the deal,

This year went in vain,

The next came with some additional pain,

She was leaving school,

This was not at all cool,

Her dad was transferred,

I guess I was destined to be suffered,

But had the courage of walking up to her and say,

Teary eyes and all I could say was,”Hey!!”

And then something came to me,

Why am I doing this, just let it be,

Life doesn’t end here,

There’s nothing to fear,

Her friend’s nice too,

And her eyes are blue,

I can’t do that, she’s the one,

Said to myself,” Dude, She’s gone”,

And I just let it go,

And she still has the glow,

Its just me that has changed,

But man, I’m not deranged,

I am happy with what He gave,

There’s nothing now for which I crave,

Nothing has been hampered,

Tell her to stay being my password.

I know this might not be that great, but its something I wrote, so I like it…..hope u all like it too……

Love, Life And God: Random Thoughts..!!!!

Love, Life And God: Random Thoughts..!!!!: It meant something else earlier, I wasn't sure it would bring about such a change in my life..... There's one thing I'd like to share fo...

Random Thoughts..!!!!

It meant something else earlier, I wasn't sure it would bring about such a change in my life.....

There's one thing I'd like to share for i have been writing something or the other every now and then. But this particular post has been on mind for quite some time now. It is something i wrote sometime back. Here it goes:-

everyday i wake up and pray,
God, please, not this day,
let me live one more phase,
leave me to graze,
in the open fields i see,
what silence and loneliness can be,
for there's no longer any you,
i am going, and I'll be through,
all day long i think not to think,
but with no one there, my eyes don't blink,
wait for the afternoon and I see,
there's too much light for there to be,
i try going somewhere else,
but, the well is where it dwells,
life's a vicious circle, you can't go out,
not in this life, for i tried to give it a thought,
have to wait for the evening,
coz, even in the open air, i was smothering,
at last the evening comes,
and releases me of my afternoon chums,
the direct light makes me feel blind,
i thank Him, for He is indeed kind,
left me all alone in my loneliness and pain,
tears roll down as a drain,
Oh Lord! let me see the beautiful evening,
for Alas! all I've been doing is dreading,
and as He is kind and wishes me to see,
the most beautiful place i could ever be,
i see the evening twilight and the shining tree,
and make a comparison with you,
how life could have been with you,
but my mind realizes, there's no you, but only me!
for there's no place beautiful without you where i can be,
so, at last, i plea, Oh My Dear Lord, help me flee,
from the pain of the day and being the lonely tree!
His kindness is the only thing i crave,
and i count on it as i lay in my own grave,
"Thou love is the ultimate one, I prayeth,
help me come to you as my grave in which i layeth"
clear the road to heaven, for here i come,
i know the things I've done cannot be undone,
so grant me the path which you like,
and I'll be happy to abide,
His grace has made me live, love and, finally,die,
i call upon Him as i cry.

This is something i dreamt about one day and decided to write it in my own words!!!!! 

That's all for now keep reading for new posts....!!!